It’s been just over a month since I left my corporate job to pursue my life’s mission… And here’s what I’ve learned so far: 1. It ain’t that different after all, kids… - When I set out to pursue a life of harmony and purpose, I had this preconceived notion in my head that I would enter this magical bubble of spiritual healers, artists and energy workers who were constantly emitting rays of sunshine and butterflies. Imagine unicorns vomiting rainbows while the faeries dance on wings of angels… Yeah – that was what I thought. Consider that bubble officially busted. It’s been a serious eye opener for me to be met with a harsh dose of reality in that, my corporate gig wasn’t that far off from my spiritual pursuit of purpose.
Let me explain: I have come to realize that no matter where you go, what you do, or who you interact with, you will always be met with core challenges. The energy will not always align (and that’s OK!). And you will always have to make decisions based on your head AND your heart – using your divine Emotional Intelligence to interpret, gauge and assess a situation to make positive, loving choices as a result of those evaluations. Sometimes the right thing and the hard thing are the same thing, regardless of what realm of energy you are working in.
2. There is no room for ego… - I started in my corporate job 8 years ago, at the low end of the totem pole, working for $10.00 an hour. Through years of perseverance, pride in one’s work, and dedication, I moved my way up 9 pay grades to a salaried position that anyone would be happy living the rest of their days out in. After all, we work until we’re old anyways, right? Hello, 401k retirement! I knew through my own ability to apply myself and really hone my skillset, that I was a formidable ally and asset to the company. I knew that they knew that I knew that too.
Somewhere though, as I was climbing this corporate ladder, I realized that my heart wasn’t in it. I was a team player in the game, making shots and handing off passes, but never celebrating my personal touch downs like I should have been. I was comfortable, an expert in my field, and I knew that I had stability and control in my position. Fast forward to present day.
4 weeks… Four weeks is all it took to shift my perception of stability back into reality. Now I say that there is no room for ego… and I believe that… because my take on ego and unconditional love are completely opposite than what they were previously. I used to think it was all head or it was all heart - there was no in between, and now I realize it’s a balancing act walking the tightrope between my head and my heart. To better clarify; here are just a few differences I have taken personal notice to within myself in the past few weeks:
• Ego judges other peoples journeys and their individual processes of healing. Unconditional love accepts the journey and supports the process – whether the person believes it to be right in their head. The heart says to love unconditionally, not just when you feel like it’s the “right time” or the person is “ready”.
• Ego says you can or can’t, while unconditional love says “Why not?” and “What if?”
• Ego allows you to be fearful or feel wronged, while unconditional love allows you to feel safe and compassionate towards others.
• Ego requires that you boast of yourself to others (I like to call that “peacocking”, which we’ve all been guilty of at one point or another), while unconditional love just requires that you love one another, and that love will be returned to you ten-fold. That leads me into my third, but not final lesson in these few short weeks…
3. Know Your Worth, Understand Your Boundaries: - Time is Money, Money is Time – we’ve all heard that saying. While it sounds so cold and insensitive, I believe it holds some truth behind its brazenness. More often than not, I have been presented with opportunities to provide services at free or little cost to the person receiving - and that is OK! I am ALL about giving, because I know that it will be returned to me someday…. But in the same breath, I recognize that in this line of work, and in everyday life – you can’t keep making withdrawals without making a deposit, because eventually your energy bank will be empty. And the obvious imbalance will take its toll on your physical body and your emotional health.
It’s a fine line to walk, to want to provide healing services to as many people as possible, but to also honor myself in my journey as well. I’m all about the bartering system – you want to trade?! I’m all ears! But I also recognize that in the same token, I am providing a very special service that has taken me years to cultivate and grow, through many personal highs and lows (albeit physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually), and that my journey should also be honored.
Corporate was easy – Monday morning comes, you roll out of bed, head to work with that Monday face of dread and know that you’ve only got 4 days and 8 hours until the weekend begins… Hey, it’s a paycheck, right!? Cha-ching! Now that my bank account has no guaranteed direct deposit coming every two weeks, the raw realization that my future, my destiny, the path I forge, and the care I take of my family is all on me. I am solely responsible for the flow of energy that is imported and exported in my life – physically, emotionally, spiritually and monetarily. In my truest heart of hearts, if I could provide services for free, I absolutely would – but my head knows that in a world that requires money to survive, I need to honor myself and those around me by maintaining an open exchange of energy, time and boundaries. After all, it’s all about balance…
While I continue on this harmonious pursuit of passion and purpose, I find that my head and heart have had to become more of team than ever before… And I honor that about myself and my sisters and brothers around me as we push forward with raising vibrational awareness and love in the world. I’m excited to see where the next four weeks takes me in my journey to enlightenment. Peace, Blessings, Gratitude and Love to each and everyone one of you (and maybe a little rainbow unicorn vomit too, just for effect ).